November 7th, 2009
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6th July, 2004. 12:31 pm. La DI Da.. Ngi-te*
Guess who called twice last Sunday night?! Uh-huh! Mel Brian, Brian..
Whichever.. HE HE HE!!! Kita ka aku smile? Daku kayu!!! :D Bitaw, we
had a nice long talk. I can't believe he's in Mnla. Niingun pa dyud sya
na mas mayu pa daw na naa sya Mnla ke ni mscall ku niya cos kadto daw
naa sya dri Cebu, aku ra daw sya awayun, then dli pa dyud daw ku tubag
iya txt msgs.. Cute* Well.. Ye~ We've been communicatin -- Txtin, blah
blah.. I said sorry for reactin the way I did and for sayin all those
shits to him sa txt. Twus a BIG!!!! mistake [ as in! I wish I cud jes
turn back time..!!! ] He said twus aright, para niya mura ra daw to'g
bati na hangin.. Ngi-te* Am glad he's back in my life. Mayu nlng na
forgive dyud ku niya, pero niingun dyud sya na he cud never forget what
I said, when I told him "there wus never an US".. :-( sigh* I said
sorry, I told him na ingun ratoh nku cos of k'lagot and na irritated ku
sa iyang mga reactions sa iyang gpang txt.. And I remember perfectly
after I txted him that, wla na sya mu reply nku.. Sigh* I can't even
forget the times we talked about things, things about me and him, and
what wus the real deal between sa amua. He said he cares, but naa iya
exgf ngexpect na mubalik sya niya.. Kadto sakit toh pero gidawat toh
nku.. I even told him if she can make him happy then ok rah nku.. But
he told a common friend na he's gettin back wit his ex to forget me.. [
whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa?! ugh* ], that's bullshit cos I told
him I wanted to be wit him, kadto na time libog na kayu ku cos there
wus somebody else.. Not somebody else na "bf" nku ha cos I wusn wit ny1
at that time, but there wus this guy tellin me he liked me.. But I
wanted to be wit Brian, pero he pushed me away cos he thought niadto
rku niya cos i had no1 na.. Twusn true :-( Nyweis.. Enuf about that..
I've had enuf of those damn sad stories.. We agreed to take things
slow.. We'll wait and see.. Am willin to take one step at a time wit
him. He's a very nice guy, I can't blame him for hatin me and for sayin
those things about me, I left him hangin, cos ye I hafta admit, he left
me hangin too.. Sigh* Mk'libog nuh? As in! Till now muangkon ku libog
ghapon.. And these lines from Jennifer Love Hewitt's HOW DO I DEAL is
pretty annoyin already~ Been on my mind since last Sunday night, after
I got off the phone wit Brian.. "how do I deal wit u, how do I deal wit
me.. when I dun even knoe myself or what it is u wan from me how do I
deal wit us, how do I knoe what's real when I dun even trust myself or
hat it is I feel".. And right now, sya n'pud ang naay ex issue, the
gurl is in Mnla, which is fine wit me. Wla ku selos or nything like
that. If this will work, it will work. Am enjoyin our friendship, dun
wanna assume, cos when I start assumin, then I'd start expectin. Mgwait
rku na kani mismu mu work out ug iyaha, and tis yet too early to say
nything. All I knoe is am thankful to have him back, thanks to
Globe!!!--always "makin things possible" :-p Am hopin for the best and
lasnite, he told me he's hopin too. Kilig kayu ku pero dli lng ku
p'obvious.. HE HE HE!!! Bitaw.. I'll fill u in wit the developments,
for now still the same, am very much single but emotionally
unavailable.. CHAR!!! Bitaw, dli sd ku gnahan mu get into somein as of
krun. Am havin fun wit friends, and I would like to see the outcome of
this Brian thingie.. Ngi-te* I've let go of him in the past, dli nku
gnahan mahitabo toh usab cos twus a very BIG mistake.. Gimahayan toh
nku.. Tsk². So uhmmmmm.. I'll see him when he gets back from his
training, he told me he might be home by christmas, or early next
year.. Sigh* Nyweis, I gotta go. Mom's screamin like hell, gotta take
care of "Taty" things.. So uhmm, I'll write soon.. Ngi-te* :-)